Abroad Update: 1
This is a long, overdue update and I hope you can forgive me...
I am in Australia!
I survived the 17 hour flight! (my skin is still recovering though)
I am wide awake at 6AM (but loving it)!
AND I am feeling uncomfortable and excited all at the same time! WOO!
I have seen the crisp Blue Mountains, cruised along Darling Harbor, walked 20k steps almost everyday, and sunk my feet in the softest sand I have ever felt before in my life. Boni - you don’t disappoint.
I’ve also tried my hardest to let go of OCD Emma and I have been pleasantly surprised with my adventures in the bar scene. It’s weird growing up.
Yet, I’d be lying if I said I have felt on cloud nine for this past week. Everything is so exciting and there is something to see at every corner, but I’ve felt a lot of self doubt and discomfort - especially since I feel like I am back at freshmen orientation all over again.
I don’t do well with no routine or schedule, and waking up everyday with nothing on my calendar frankly makes me anxious. Am I missing out on something? Should I be traveling right now? Should I be meeting more people? The questions could go on and on. I can’t think of a time in my life where I haven’t had something on my ‘to do’ list and when I get uncomfortable, I tend to fall back to certain habits to bring me that comfort. Yes, that means certain eating habits and clamming my mouth shut so no one can bring my guard down.
Thankfully now though, I know how to keep myself in check. Falling back into my comfort zone won’t bring me any new life experiences - which is why I decided to come to the other side of the world. Discomfort. Doesn’t. Last. Forever.
(I’ve been repeating this to myself).
Besides, I AM IN SYDNEY AUSTRALIA! It’s stunning, MUCH cleaner than any US city I have been in AND has a cafe at every street corner.
Why am I letting the mind demons get the best of me?
Even though I keep second guessing myself, this is probably the best thing that could be happening to me right now. It’s like a whole new slate, a whole new chapter that I have NO idea what to expect. I think it is safe to say that I will be coming back a different person. In a good way.
As this is just a quick update for you all, a group of 6 of us are traveling to Melbourne Thursday - Saturday (have any recommendations, please let me know!) and classes start on the 5th. I don’t have class till Wednesday, so how will Emma keep herself busy? TBD since right now, she does not feel like herself.
But sometimes, you just gotta keep pushing forward.
Since I have taken so many photos, I started a VSCO journal to keep updates in. Click this link/save the link to see where I have been :)